One year ago, Gregory Bovino was a low-profile Border Patrol chief overseeing a relatively small stretch of the U.S.-Mexico border in California. Just months into President Donald Trump’s second term, however, Bovino emerged as the face of one of the most aggressive immigration crackdowns in U.S. history, leading federal agents as they flooded one predominantly Democratic city after another, making thousands of arrests.
Now that approach has turned into a political liability for Trump. And Bovino, 55, has been dispatched back to California, days after he declared — despite video evidence to the contrary — that the intensive care nurse fatally shot in Minneapolis on Saturday by federal immigration personnel wanted to “massacre law enforcement.”
Bovino’s rapid rise and fall reflects the arc of the Trump administration’s combative immigration enforcement tactics and the mounting public backlash it has generated.
The administration’s enforcement operations in multiple metropolitan areas formed the capstone of Bovino’s three-decade career in U.S. Customs and Border Protection, the nation’s biggestfederal law enforcement agency. His visibility also demonstrated the more prominent role that Trump and Homeland Security Secretary Kristi L. Noem has given tothe Border Patrol in urban areas, mostly far from its traditional purview over the U.S.-Mexico border.
Dressed in his signature olive-green uniform and sporting a buzz cut, Bovino led masked agents into American cities like a military commander directing troops into battle. Bovino relished trading insults with critics on social media, posting action videos of his agents’ maneuvers and appearing on the front lines of tear-gas-laced clashes with protesters.
His leadership drew criticism over time,including an admonishment from a federal judge in Illinois, who said the use of force by federal agents “shocks the conscience.” That criticism mounted this month amid Bovino’s forceful defense of the fatal shootings by federal immigration personnel of two American citizens in Minneapolis, Renée Good and Alex Pretti.
Even Trump, who has touted the blue-city operations, seemed to acknowledge that in Minneapolis, Bovino had pushed past the boundaries of traditional law enforcement tactics.
“You know, Bovino is very good, but he’s a pretty out-there kind of a guy,” Trump said in a Fox News interview Tuesday. “And in some cases, that’s good. Maybe it wasn’t good here.”
Some former officials of the Department of Homeland Security, which oversees CBP, said they welcomed Bovino’s departure from Minneapolis out of concern for the agency’s credibility.
“I hope it’s a sign that perhaps there is a recalibration going on about how to approach the enforcement of immigration laws,” said Tim Quinn, a longtime CBP official who resigned last year. “I don’t think agents were well represented by his actions, and I fear that the country’s view of the Border Patrol is going to be negatively affected, but hopefully not irreparably damaged.”
Bovino’s elevated status within the agency was unusual because he didn’t appear to operate within the chain of command, which would require him to answer to senior CBP officials. Instead, he was in direct contact with Noem, said Robert Danley, who retired as CBP head of professional responsibility in December.
“He has a more direct line to the secretary, and he’s able to do what she wants and what he wants,” Danley said.
DHS and Bovino did not respond to multiple requests for comment this week. Tricia McLaughlin, a DHS spokesperson, said Monday evening on X that Bovino “has NOT been relieved of his duties” and called him a “key part of the President’s team and a great American.”
Nick Sortor, a conservative influencer whose arrest at an anti-Immigration and Customs Enforcement protest in Portland won admiration from Trump, has championed Bovino’s leadership and said he hopes the administration keeps him at the center of its crackdown on illegal immigration.
“His presence on the front lines was a huge morale booster for the Border Patrol, which is obviously under heavy scrutiny,” Sortor said. “Him being there and risking his life beside them every day was sort of like fuel for them … He was becoming a figurehead for the mass deportation effort, somebody who was hell-bent on fulfilling what hebelieved was a mandate from the 2024 election.”
Days before Trump took office, Bovino oversaw a Border Patrol raid in Kern County, at the southern end of California’s Central Valley,some 250 miles from the border. Although the agency described the operation as targeted, Border Patrol agents had no knowledge of the criminal or immigration history for 77 of the 78 people arrested, according to CalMatters, a nonprofit news organization.
The American Civil Liberties Union alleged in a lawsuit that agents were conducting arrests indiscriminately of people of color “who appeared to be farmworkers or day laborers, regardless of their actual immigration status.” A federal judge issued a preliminary injunction last spring barring Border Patrol agents from stopping people in that region without reasonable suspicion that they were violating U.S. immigration law.
“Looking back on last year, the operation looks like an audition for Greg Bovino, and he got the part,” said Bree Bernwanger, senior staff attorney at the ACLU of Northern California. “That raid was a precursor to the policies and practices that DHS would adopt writ large across the country. … We’ve seen them ignoring proof of immigration status and an utter disregard for the laws on the books that restrict immigration arrests without a warrant.”
Bovino remained little known nationally until June, when Border Patrol agents began making arrests in Los Angeles. After agents descended on a park in an immigrant-rich neighborhood on horseback and in military vehicles, Bovino told Fox News, “Better get used to us now, because this is going to be normal very soon.”
Several weeks later, in Chicago, Bovino’s aggressive tactics became more visible, as federal agents deployed tear gas and protesters clashed with law enforcement outside an ICE processing facilitywest of downtown. The nonprofit Chicago Headline Club filed a lawsuit against administration officials, alleging that the use of rubber bullets and tear gas against reporters and protesters violated their First Amendment rights.
Bovino, who was among multiple defendants in the lawsuit, claimed in a deposition that the agents’ conduct was “more than exemplary.” But U.S. District Judge Sara Ellis concluded that Bovino’s testimony was “not credible” and wrote in a court opinion that Bovino admitted “he lied multiple times” about the events that led up to his throwing a tear-gas canister toward a crowd. Bovino and DHS said that a rock hit him in the head before he threw the canister, and he said that he was “mistaken” in his deposition.
“I see little reason for the use of force that the federal agents are currently using,” Ellis said when she issued a preliminary injunction prohibiting immigration officers from using tear gas and pepper spray on those who do not pose a threat. “I would find the use of force shocks the conscience.”
From Chicago, Bovino continued on to shorter-term operations in New Orleans and Charlotte. Then came his posting to Minneapolis, which has turned out to be an inflection point for his career and, perhaps, for the administration’s immigration crackdown in urban areas.
On the morning of Jan. 7, an ICE officer, Jonathan Ross, shot and killed 37-year-old Good while she drove her SUV near her home in Minneapolis. A Washington Post analysis of video footage found Good’s car did move toward Ross but that he was able to move out of the way and fire at least two of three shots from the side of the vehicle as it veered past him.
Bovino, however, did not hesitate to condemn Good’s actions and praise the shooter, saying, “Hats off to that ICE agent” in a Fox News interview.
Seventeen days later, Bovino would once again defend the use of fatal force as the news broke that Pretti had been shot and killed in an encounter with federal immigration personnel.
At a news conference just hours after Pretti’s death, Bovino claimed that agents tried to disarm Pretti, but he “violently resisted.” An agent fired “defensive shots,” he said.
“This looks like a situation where an individual wanted to do maximum damage and massacre law enforcement,” Bovino added.
Analysis of videos of the scene by several media organizations does not support Bovino’s claims. Federal immigration personnel had already secured Pretti’s handgun by the time they fatally shot him, according to a Post analysis of videos that captured the incident from several angles. As many as eight officers and agents were attempting to detain the 37-year-old ICU nurse, videos show. Federal officials now say that a Border Patrol agent and a CBP officer both shot Pretti, and they no longer claim that he had menaced law enforcement with his gun.
By Sunday, some Republican members of Congress had begun raising concerns about the shooting and pressing for an independent investigation. And by the following day, both Trump and White House spokeswoman Karoline Leavitt signaled a change, saying that Trump’s border czar, Tom Homan, would be taking over the operation in Minneapolis.
“Mr. Bovino is a wonderful man, and he is a great professional,” Leavitt said. “He is going to very much continue to lead [Customs and Border Protection] throughout and across the country. Mr. Homan will be the main point of contact on the ground in Minneapolis.”
The news drew praise from Bovino’s critics.
“This move by the administration is a political recognition that the violence we’re seeing across our communities, from Minneapolis to cities nationwide, is deeply unpopular, unacceptable, and politically toxic,” said Todd Schulte, president of the immigration advocacy group FWD.us.
Bovino allies like Sortor registered their disappointment. “Bovino put his life on the line EVERY SINGLE DAY pushing for mass deportations across the country, going head to head with leftists and reminding THEM who’s boss,” he said on X: “DO NOT COWER TO THE DEMOCRATS, PRESIDENT TRUMP! BACK BOVINO!”
Bovino’s typically busy social media feed has been quiet since then. His most recent post on X came Monday morning before news of his departure spread. “Finding and arresting criminal illegal aliens,” he wrote, “this is why we are deployed across the country.”
U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement and other immigration enforcement agencies would keep operating even if broad swaths of the federal government close this weekend.
Lawmakers face a Friday deadline for a partial government shutdown, 80 days after they reopened federal agencies after the longest shutdown ever in November. Congress has approved half of its annual spending bills since then and was poised to approve the other the bills late last week in one combined measure.
But the killing of Alex Pretti in Minneapolis by immigration authorities on Saturday — just weeks after an ICE officer killed Renée Good in the same city — outraged congressional Democrats, who say they’ll block the spending bill unless it includes more oversight of ICE. Republicans so far have rebuffed that demand, setting up a likely partial shutdown that would close agencies whose funding hasn’t been enacted.
ICE largely doesn’t need the spending bill to pass, however, even though its operations are at the heart of the standoff. That’s because the massive tax and immigration policy law the GOP passed last summer at President Donald Trump’s urging included $75 billion for the enforcement agency over the next four years.
The one-time bonus was nearly eight times as much as the agency received in 2020, its highest-funded year to date, and the largest investment in immigration enforcement since the creation of the Department of Homeland Security in 2003. Including the ICE funds, DHS overall received $170 billion for immigration enforcement in the GOP law, the $3.4 trillion One Big Beautiful Bill.
The law put $45 billion toward immigration detention facilities and nearly $30 billion for hiring and training ICE agents. It also included $3.5 billion for Justice Department grants to reimburse local law enforcement agencies that help with immigration operations; $6.2 billion for Customs and Border Protection personnel hiring and bonuses; and $6.2. billion for border security technology and screening. Last summer, the influx landed right as ICE appeared close to burning through its annual appropriations.
It’s not clear how much of the money the agency has already spent, said Jennifer Ibáñez Whitlock, senior policy counsel at the National Immigration Law Center.
“It’s our best guess … that they still have significant amounts of that $170 billion to spend,” she said. “DHS doesn’t need any more money through the regular appropriation process because they received such a significant windfall under the One Big Beautiful Bill.”
DHS spokesperson Tricia McLaughlin said in a statement that Senate Democrats are “blocking vital DHS funding that keeps our country secure and its people safe,” including Transportation Security Administration, the Federal Emergency Management Agency, the Coast Guard and Border Patrol.
“This funding supports national security and critical national emergency operations, including FEMA responses to a historic snowstorm that is affecting 250 million Americans. Washington may stall, but the safety of the American people will not wait,” she said.
Republican leaders have rejected calls to separate this year’s Homeland Security spending from the measure to fund the rest of the government, but Senate Appropriations chair Susan Collins (R., Maine) and Homeland Security Appropriations subcommittee chair Sen. Katie Boyd Britt (R., Ala.) say they’re exploring options that could satisfy both sides.
Senate Majority Leader John Thune (R., S.D.) said on the Senate floor Tuesday that “productive talks are ongoing” and encouraged Democrats to remain engaged to find a solution to avoid a “needless shutdown.”
The extra money from last summer means Trump would have even more leeway than usual to keep his priorities going in a partial shutdown.
Presidents generally have broad discretion over which agencies should close and which should stay open with unpaid workers during shutdowns. Traditionally, the White House budget office has preserved functions crucial to national security, public safety, and protecting government property, even if the agencies responsible for those activities aren’t funded.
But outside funding streams — from other legislation or fees collected from government activities — give administrations room to move money around to their most favored agencies, even outside the bounds of spending laws.
Other federal functions without new appropriations would grind to a halt, and Trump and White House budget director Russell Vought leveraged the 2025 shutdown to marginalize agencies they felt mostly served Democratic-controlled constituencies.
In a potential shutdown this weekend, the IRS would shutter justdays into tax season. Money for housing assistance programs would be at risk in the aftermath of a winter storm that sent temperatures plummeting to historic lows. Government-backed scientific research would halt overnight.
“The Trump administration knows that if there isn’t an appropriations bill, they can still do a lot of things. Many of the chains come off of them,” said Richard Stern, who studies the federal budget at Advancing American Freedom, a conservative think tank founded by former Vice President Mike Pence. “They showed in the last shutdown that they’ll use full executive authority if Congress won’t do its job, and in that sense, they called the Democrats’ bluff. This time, the precise thing Democrats are fighting over is the thing Trump already has permanent funding for.”
The prolonged government closure in November — forced by disagreements over extending enhancedAffordable Care Act subsidies that expired last year — concluded with an agreement to approve three of 12 appropriations bills through September and set a deadline of Jan. 30 for the remaining bills.
Three more passed earlier this month, leaving six of the largest and most controversial funding bills to be negotiated between Republicans and Democrats. That bipartisan agreement was announced last week and initially appeared on track to pass.
But the Trump administration also flooded Minneapolis with federal immigration officials as part of Operation Metro Surge, which it called the largest enforcement operation in the agency’s history. Democrats began raising concerns with agents’ aggressive actions against U.S. citizens and undocumented immigrants with no criminal history.
Top Democrats on the House and Senate Appropriations committees at first backed the funding agreement they helped negotiate, which would send $64.4 billion to Homeland Security, including $10 billion for ICE — similar to itsexisting funding levels.
They touted the changes they secured in the bill — including a decrease in detention beds, lowered funding for Border Patrol and for ICE’s enforcement and removal operations, and money for body cameras — and argued that denying funding for Homeland Security would also affect FEMA, the TSA and the Coast Guard. The measure did not include other changes Democrats pushed for, including prohibitions on ICE agents shooting at moving vehicles or detaining U.S. citizens.
Last week, top Democrats also noted that the 2025 GOP law meant ICE could continue to operate in a shutdown. The bill narrowly passed the House, primarily along party lines.
After federal officers shot and killed Pretti on Saturday, though, Democratic outrage boiled over. In the Senate — where at least seven Democrats would have to vote with Republicans to overcome a filibuster — the party’s leaders pledged to block the Homeland Security funding bill until Republicans agree to new accountability measures for ICE.
Now Democrats want Republicans to strip the Homeland Security funding bill from the rest of the package, which has wider bipartisan support. They acknowledge that it would do little to shut down ICE’s operations, but argue it’s necessary to force changes.
“Americans must be eyes wide open that blocking the DHS funding bill will not shut down ICE. ICE is now sitting on a massive slush fund it can tap, whether or not we pass a funding bill,” Sen. Patty Murray (D., Wash.), the lead Democrat on the Senate Appropriations Committee, said in a statement. “But we all saw another American shot and killed in broad daylight. There must be accountability, and we must keep pushing Republicans to work with us to rein in DHS.”
MYKOLAIV, Ukraine — She’d applied for job after job, but none of them had worked out. Not the gig in her uncle’s restaurant. Not the bakery internship. Not waitressing. Now Vika was 18 and still unemployed, her life seemingly dead-ending before it ever even began.
Shelay back on the couch, scrolling through more job listings on her cell phone. It was March of last year, and for the past few weeks, she’d been crashing at her brother’s apartment in this southern Ukrainian port city. Her mom, Lesia, kept urging her to move home, but the last thing Vika wanted was to return to her tiny village, with its shrapnel-pocked homes and caved-in school, where the only opportunity was seasonal work picking tomatoes.
Just then, a Telegram message pinged in her inbox: “Do you still need a job?”
She thumbed over it and paused. The man, who said his name was Danylo, was offering $2,500 if she agreed to pick up a package on the city’s outskirts and drop it off at a police station the next morning.
Vika, who agreed to speak on the condition that the last names of her and her family not be used because of pending legal action against her, didn’t consider similar cases that had recently appeared on the local news. There were the four Ukrainian boys who had built a bomb that killed three at a cafe a few miles away on Valentine’s Day. The 17-year-old who died when a bomb disguised as a thermos exploded on his way to a train station. The two 14-year-olds who lit an explosive next to a police station near Kyiv.
All had been recruited through messages on Telegram or other social media channels. Behind the screen: Russian intelligence agents.
These sabotage operations are a dangerous new form of hybrid warfare, with both Russia and Ukraine accusing the other side of manipulating vulnerable populations — including children and the elderly — into committing acts of violence for a quick paycheck.
Since 2022, the Russian Supreme Court alleged, every fourth person convicted of sabotage fell between the ages of 16 and 17, though Russian authorities rarely provide evidence and confession videos are often filmed by the Federal Security Service, known for its coercive tactics. Ukrainian officials have been transparent about their investigations, identifying and proving in courtabout 1,400 sabotage operationslinked to Russian intelligence services over the past two years, including 800 in 2025, with a quarter of those arrested below the age of 18. Neither figure could be independently verified, and both countries deny their roles in such operations.
Vika hadn’t seen the new campaign from Ukraine’s internal security agency, the SBU, which explained that “if someone offers you ‘a simple delivery’ to a military enlistment office, police station, or government building, know that they are trying to kill you,” or the Telegram bot where suspicious messages could be flagged. All she knew was that $2,500 was enough to give her life direction — the launching pad to a new future.
Writing back, she immediately agreed.
‘Vulnerable’
The next morning, Vika woke before her brother and stepped outside to call Danylo.
He picked up on the second try, giving her an address out by the city’s train station where he said the package was waiting. Vika considered asking him what was inside, then thought better of it and called a taxi. She needed the money.
By that point, she’d been to more than 10 job interviews and had invested dozens of hours looking for open positions. Her brother Ihor promised that she could stay with him and his girlfriend for as long as she needed, but Vika wanted independence.
“She was definitely in a vulnerable state at that time,” Ihor said later. “We were explaining to her that everyone goes through this. She didn’t believe us.”
Vika, 18, with her brother Ihor, who was in the military.
They came from a family that talked over each other, with Ihor often getting the last word. He was seven years older, a soldier who had nearly lost his leg fighting in the Donetsk region in 2023. Chronic pain and disability forced his resignationfrom the army. Where Ihor was open and driven, Vika was quiet and closed off, struggling to find her way. She hid behind a curtain of straight, dark hair and chipped away at her nail polish when nervous.
She was 16 when the full-scale war started, evacuating to western Ukraine with her mother while her father stayed behind. Russian troops rolled past their village, not far from the front line in Kherson. When it was safe enough, her family returned home. The past painful, they fixated on her future. Perhaps in the food industry, building on her degree in food science.
They hoped she’d land on her feet.
‘A fatal mistake’
Vika slid out of the back seat of the taxi with a strange feeling in the pit of her stomach. Wanting to back out, she texted her boyfriend, a soldier fighting in Ukraine’s northern Kharkiv region.
“I almost made a fatal mistake. I’ll tell you when we’re together.”
“At least hint,” he replied.
“I’ll tell you everything, but not like this,” she said.
Then the threats started rolling in.
Danylo demanded to know where she was. He told her to call him, then promised that no one would hurt her — if she followed through.
“It was sort of like I was under some hypnosis,” she said later. “I wasn’t thinking. I was just doing what the man was telling me to.”
So she set aside her fear and carried on with the plan. She picked up the package, which consisted of two reusable shopping bags. One was heavy with a five-liter jug that sloshed with a milky substance. The other contained two cell phones. She carried the bags across the street and called Danylo. He instructed her to tape one of the phones to an orange fuse snaking out of the bottle top of the jug. On the other, he told her to activate an app.
People walk through a park in Mykolaiv, Ukraine.
Vika didn’t know it yet, but a counterintelligence agent from the SBU was watching. He’d worked a growing number of cases like hers, largely driven by financial insecurity. The plot often started small, a few bills offered for a menial task. As trust grew, the severity of the assignment increased, then turned toward violence. At that point, the agent said, “they can just threaten the victim with exposure” if they refused to follow through.
“It’s easier to work with teenagers who are not psychologically ready to deal with stuff like that,” he said, speaking on the condition of anonymity in keeping with security service protocols.
His job was to stop an attack before it happened. The SBU was 90% effective, he said. But the number of cases was rising, and agents couldn’t be everywhere at once. In one case, a teenager near Vinnytsia in central Ukraine had already thrown two molotov cocktails at a government building, engulfing it in flames, when the SBU arrested him a few days later. He had received more than $1,300 — money he said he planned to use, in part, to pay his grandmother’s hospital bills.
“Every person has their own reasoning for why they do this,” the agent said later, declining to specify how Vika’s case came onto his radar. “To me, it’s hard to understand.”
He watched as she settled onto a bench near a playground and peered into the shopping bags, fiddling with what was inside. Nearby, a mother pushed her young son and daughter on the swings.
He video-recorded the scene as evidence. “Kids are playing, this girl is making a bomb,”he said, his radio crackling in the background.
The police station near where Vika, 18, is accused of trying to plant a bomb in Mykolaiv, Ukraine.
In a trance
Vika left the playground in what felt like a trance and hailed a cab toward the police station. As the city whipped by, a blur of winter blue and gray, messages from Danylo pinged on her cell phone. He praised her, calling her a “good girl,” and implored that she keep him updated on timing.
“I’ll call when I’m close to the place,” she replied.
“If everything goes well, $3,000,” he said, upping the initial price. “I’ll send it to you! I give you my word! … Make sure you place the bag carefully without shaking it.”
She was now only a few minutes away.
“The bag seems large,” she said. “Or is it OK?”
“It’s just the right size!” he said. “It doesn’t raise suspicion.”
She got out of the taxi.
A few minutes later, three SBU agents disguised as civilians approached. They asked what she was carrying. Vika panicked. She didn’t want to lie. When she finally spoke, it felt like someone else was answering.
“I think,” she admitted, “this might be an explosive.”
A view of Mykolaiv, Ukraine.
The trial
No lawyer would touch Vika’s case.
Charged with terrorism, she faces up to 10 years in prison, though the prosecutor is willing to lessen her sentence if she cooperates with investigators. After multiple consultations with private attorneys failed, Vika’s mother recommended she accept a court-appointed lawyer. Vika was surprised to learn the tall and burly man wasa retired SBU member — once assigned to investigate the type of clients he now defends.
For seven months, Vika remained in custody as the SBU raided her brother’s apartment and her parents’ home for evidence. Lesia, her mother, mailed care packages of Vika’s favorite snacks. They caught up over the facility’s allotted 15-minute phone calls. Vika didn’t say much about the bunk room she shared with 13 other inmates or how they tried not to discuss their cases, some of them violent.
Vika cycled through three judges before the final one, Volodymyr Aleynikov, released her in the fall on a $6,000 bail, which Lesia scraped together with donations from multiple family members. Now under court supervision as the beginning of her trial approaches, Vika is back to where she started: sleeping in the twin-size bed of her childhood bedroom, stuck in her home village.
She felt “stupid” to have been tricked into such a plot, she said in an interview with the Washington Post in the fall.
On a brisk November morning, Vika and Lesia entered the courthouse, walking through a broken metal detector and down a dimly lit hallway to Courtroom 2. Aleynikov shuffled in soon after. At 53, he’d presided over this room for decades, his caseload increasing as the war slogged on.
The facts of Vika’s case didn’t shock him. Not that investigators discovered that the bomb she’d been carrying was built by four local boys between the ages of 14 and 16. Not that she’d ignored so many red flags. Not that it would probably take two years to sift through all the evidence. Aleynikov had nine similar cases on his docket, enough for him to ban smartphones at home, where he had a 15-year-old son.
Now he turned to Vika.
“Do you understand your rights?” he asked.
She nodded. Glancing at her mother for reassurance, she asked the judge if it would be possible to move back in with her brother in Mykolaiv. She’d gotten a new cell phone for her 19th birthday, she offered, and he could contact her there.
“Just don’t look for a job with that phone,” Aleynikov said.
He set the date of her next hearing and the court adjourned for the day. Vika and her mom walked back outside, her fate yet undecided.
Ashigh schoolteacher Christa McAuliffe prepared to be strapped into the space shuttle Challenger, Brian Russell, an official at the company that built the craft’s solid rocket boosters, had just participated in a fateful teleconference from his Utah headquarters.
Like every other engineer in the conference room at Morton Thiokol on that day four decades ago, the 31-year-old Russell opposed launching because the bitterly cold temperature at Florida’s Kennedy Space Center threatened the O-rings that sealedthe rocket boosters. Their managers initially supported this view, but Russell listened in dismay as they reversed themselves under pressure from NASA officials and senior company officials and signed off on the launch.
The mission ended in catastrophe for the reason that Russell feared — a story I know well as a reporter who covered McAuliffe and witnessed the Challenger’s explosion. But for those involved in this tragedy, the families of the astronauts and those who approved the launch, much about thisstory is perhaps even more relevant today than it was on Jan. 28, 1986.
The belief that there are still lessons to learn from the disaster is what led Russell last year to take an extraordinary step that, until now, has received no public notice. He visited NASA centers across the country, telling the Challenger story in hopes that similar mistakes will not occur as the space agency prepares to launch four astronauts on Artemis II, which is scheduled to fly by the moon as soon as February.
The lesson of Challengeris not just about the O-rings that failed. For Russell and colleagues who accompanied him on the NASA tour, understanding the human causes behind the Challenger disaster provides still-crucial lessons about managers who fail to heed the warnings of their own experts. Russell made his tour to make sure NASA officials “heard it from us, and heard the emotional impact that we felt.”
‘America’s finest’
On that day four decades ago, I was standing alongside McAuliffe’s parents and friends. I was a reporter in the Boston Globe’s bureau in Concord, New Hampshire, and I was assigned to follow McAuliffe’s journey from Concord to Cape Canaveral. I visited McAuliffe in her home, flew with her son’s class to Florida and witnessed the disaster.
As the 40th anniversary neared, I revisited McAuliffe’s journey, documented in my clippings as well as thousands of pages of books, reports, and previously unpublished material. I tracked down the handful of survivingformer officials involved in the launch decision, including the rocket company manager, who reversed himself and signed off on the launch.
What I found areintertwined stories: one of McAuliffe and her fellow crewmates, determined to revive interest in the space program, and another of behind-the-scenes turmoil as rocket engineers all but begged that the launch be scrubbed.
President Ronald Reagan hadannounced in 1984 that he wanted the first private citizen in space to be “one of America’s finest — a teacher.” McAuliffe was chosenby a government-appointed panel in July 1985 from 11,000 applicants to be the “space teacher.” Invariably portrayed in media as a small-town teacher with a nervous laugh, she was in fact a teacher like few others, a bit of a rebel who was bursting to speak about inequality, woeful pay, and the power of politics — if only she was asked.
McAuliffe, 37, taught a history course called The American Women, which included study of astronaut Sally Ride, who in 1983 became the first American woman in space, assigned to the Challenger. Two years later, when McAuliffe learned that Reagan had sought a teacher to be the first civilian in space, she filled out an application seeking to follow in Ride’s path — which, as it happened, would be aboard the same space shuttle.
Christa McAuliffe tries out the commander’s seat on the flight deck of a shuttle simulator at the Johnson Space Center in Houston on Sept. 13, 1985.
“As a woman, I have been envious of those men who could participate in the space program and who were encouraged to excel in the areas of math and science,” McAuliffe wrote in her application. “I felt that women had indeed been left outside of one of the most exciting careers available. When Sally Ride and other women began to train as astronauts, I could look among my students and see ahead of them an ever increasing list of opportunities.”
McAuliffe became one of 10 finalists, training with the group and traveling to Cape Canaveral on July 12, 1985, to witness a launch of the Challenger. But the flight was aborted three seconds before liftoff because of a faulty valve. Days later, McAuliffe was unanimously chosen by the government-appointed panel of expertsto be the teacher in space, a decision announced at the White House on July 19, 1985, by Vice President George H.W. Bush.
Ten days later, after NASA fixed the valve, the spacecraft launched but was almost immediately in trouble. One of the three engines shut down, leading to concern that the shuttle would have to make an emergency landing. NASA controller Jenny Howard probably saved the mission when she made a split-second decision that faulty sensors caused the shutdown and overrode them, enabling the flight to continue. Twice in two weeks, Challenger had been in danger, but the teacher-in-space show went on.
Only two days later, NASA publicists whisked McAuliffe onto the set of The Tonight Show, where she gave host Johnny Carson a kiss and won him over, along with a national audience of millions. The recent problems with Challenger, however, were on her mind, as she said the timing of her flight was “being bumped up a little bit with the problems they’ve had.”
“Are you in any way frightened of something like that?” Carson said, noting that “they had a frightening [incident] and one of the engines went out.”
“I really haven’t thought of it in those terms because I see the shuttle program as a very safe program,” McAuliffe responded. “But I think the disappointment …”
Carson interrupted to recall a joke by another astronaut: “It’s a strange feeling when you realize that every part on this capsule was made by the lowest bidder.”
‘I think it’s important to be involved’
A few days later, McAuliffe was back in Concord and agreed to see me at her gracious three-story house in a neighborhood known as The Hill. Her husband, Steven, who was then in private law practice, listened attentively.
At the time, New Hampshire was a solidly conservative Republican state. McAuliffe was an outspoken activist with political ambition; she had been the head of a local teachers union and, true to her Massachusetts roots, a self-described feminist and Kennedy Democrat.
Although rarely mentioned in national stories, her fight for teacher salaries had made her a local legend when she made the case before a town meeting to raise pay, and she succeeded.
By the time McAuliffe applied to be a teacher in space, New Hampshire teacher salaries averaged only $18,577, better than only Maine and Mississippi, according to NEA statistics, and she made only $24,000 annually after 15 years. When I asked her about the salary fight and the continuing low pay for teachers, McAuliffe looked up from packing a bag labeled “Teacher in Space” and said that, after dozens of interviews, this was the first time she had been asked such a question about education. She hoped that her space mission would give her a platform to fight for teachers.
“My sympathies have always been for working-class people. I grew up in that era — we are real big Kennedy supporters — and I think it’s important to be involved.”
As we discussed McAuliffe’s recent round of rousing public appearances, including on The Tonight Show, Steven McAuliffe couldn’t resist hinting about a future in politics: “The Democratic Party could use a good candidate,” he said. “I think she’d be pretty good, don’t you?”
Warning signs
The space shuttle was one of the greatest triumphs in aeronautical design that the world had seen. The airplane-like orbiter carried astronauts and payload such as satellites and could return to Earth for a runway landing. It was launched into space by an external tank with liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen, propelled by two solid rocket boosters that were jettisoned about two minutes into flight and could be reused.
But the solid rocket boosters had a potential weakness. They were constructed in sections at the Morton Thiokol plant in Utah, shipped across the country by rail and reassembled at the Florida launch site. This meant the rocket was fit together at a series of field joints, as they were called, which would have to be sealed with an O-ring, a supersize version of a rubber seal on a kitchen faucet.
The O-rings were only a quarter-inch thick, wrapped around the rocket sections at a circumference of 37 feet. It was well known that the slightest leak in an O-ring could be catastrophic, so a second seal was added for redundancy.
NASA insisted the rockets were so secure that the probability of failure was too small to calculate — they could fly every week for 100 years without incident, the government asserted at one point.
Indeed, when a NASA official briefed McAuliffe and others, he said if a crucial part should fail, a backup assured success, citing the need for such redundancy to prevent “a burn-through in the solid rocket boosters … because we’re very concerned about the first two minutes you’re on the solid rockets. If one of those rockets goes, why, it’s pretty bad,” according to I Touch the Future, a 1986 biography of McAuliffe by Robert T. Hohler.
But the warning signs had been piling up.
Seven months before McAuliffe’s selection was announced, Morton Thiokol engineer Roger Boisjoly was alarmed at what he saw during an examination of rockets retrieved after the launch of space shuttle Discovery. That spacecraft had launched after days of what was called a once-in-a-century freeze in which temperatures at the launchpad dropped to 18 degrees. Boisjoly’s postlaunch inspection found damage to O-rings that he determined had been caused by the cold.
Yet when tests confirmed Boisjoly’s thesis, “management insisted that this position be softened,” Boisjoly later said at a Massachusetts Institute of Technology speech.
Boisjoly was so concerned that his warnings were being ignored that on July 31, 1985 — the same day McAuliffe appeared on The Tonight Show — he wrote a memo to his superiors ominously titled “SRM O-ring Erosion/Potential Failure Criticality.”
“This letter is written to insure that management is fully aware of the seriousness of the current O-ring erosion problem …” Boisjoly wrote. If there was a repeat of an O-ring problem that occurred on an earlier mission, he feared, “The result would be a catastrophe of the highest order — loss of human life.”
‘I think it’s safe enough’
On the day that the field of teacher-in-space candidates had been narrowed to 10, the shuttle’s commander, Richard Scobee, told his wife, June, that he was concerned about the impression given by NASA about how safe the shuttle program had become.
“They have 10 finalists, and they’re really counting [on] how safe it is to fly the shuttle now,” Scobee said, as June recounted in aninterview this month with the Washington Post. “And we know it’s still a test vehicle. It’s not a commercial flight. Should I go to Washington to talk to the 10 finalists?”
June told her husband that he should go, “and if any of them wanted to back out, that’s a good time.”
Scobee delivered his warning to the finalists. None backed out.
After McAuliffe was chosen and traveled to Houston for training, she visited June at her home.
“Do you think it’s really safe?” McAuliffe asked.
“Christa, no one really knows for certain, but if it’s safe enough that I’m encouraging my husband to fly, then I think it’s safe enough,” June responded.
Thinking back on the moment almost 40 years later, June recalled, “She appreciated that. And that’s all I could say. What did I know?”
McAuliffe turned from her round of interviews to an intense training schedule — much compressed compared with that of astronauts — and earned the admiration of skeptical colleagues who at one time saw her as taking away a seat from others who had been waiting years for their turn. Eventually the view was that she had become so popular that she might be the savior of the shuttle program.
As launch day approached,McAuliffe had allowedme to accompany her son’s flight to Florida on Jan. 22, 1986. Scott, 9 years old and accompanied by his third-grade classmates, sat in a window seat as he drew a Martian on a pad. He was looking forward to the launch — and visiting Sea World to see a killer whale.
As the United flight descended through the clouds, Scott looked out the window and saw Kennedy Space Center and the launchpad from which his mother was scheduled to lift off.
“Someone called to him to play a game,” I wrote, “but Scott stayed by the window, transfixed.”
Determined to fly
For several days, launches were planned and scrubbed. McAuliffe’s father, Ed Corrigan, a plainspoken and proud dad, wandered into a Cocoa Beach store that had advertised “Teacher in Space Souvenirs.” The store offered him a 10 percent discount on large buttons with an image of his daughter and, as he told it, he bought dozens and “I’m giving them out like cigars.” He said Christa was “very anxious” and couldn’t wait until liftoff.
The cancellations had made NASA the butt of jokes on national newscasts, particularly the hapless circumstances of Jan. 27, which CBS anchor Dan Rather called a “red faces all around … high-tech low comedy.” That day’s flight was postponed after technicians noticed a screw protruding from a door latch and could not locate a drill to remove it; then, when a drill was found, its battery could not be located. Finally, after hacksawing the screw, high winds canceled the launch. I wrote in my story that day that a NASA official said while there had been only a “minuscule chance” of a problem, “we are dealing with human life here and we don’t take chances.”
The attitude was, ignore the critics, safety first. Or so it seemed.
The plan was to launch the following morning, but the forecast was foran overnight low of 18 degrees and freezing temperaturesinto the morning. It was broadly assumed there would be another cancellation. A year earlier, similar temperatures had been called a once-in-a-century freeze and — unknown to the public — had caused almost catastrophic damage to the O-ring.
But NASA was determined to fly. Questions would later be raised in a congressional investigation and elsewhere about whether the push to launch was due partly to Reagan’s intention to highlight McAuliffe in his State of the Union speech that evening, but White House officials denied exerting pressure.
Boisjoly, meanwhile, was making one last effort to convince his superiors at Morton Thiokol as well as NASA that they were risking catastrophe. He was joined in a meeting at the company’s Utah facility by Brian Russell, the engineer who had recently been promoted to project manager.
Brian Russell at his home in North Ogden, Utah, on Jan. 20.
Russell came prepared with data that underscored his concern about whether the O-rings would fail in cold weather. “We were unified as an engineering team going into that meeting on recommending a delay,” Russell said.
That was going to be their message in a teleconference with NASA officials who had gathered at Cape Canaveral and the Marshall Space Flight Center in Alabama. Around 9 p.m. Eastern time — about 12 hours before the scheduled launch, Boisjoly said that no launch should take place if the temperature was below 53 degrees, which seemed to rule out a launch given the forecast. The final word seemed to come from Morton Thiokol’s vice president, Joseph Kilminster.
“I stated, based on the engineering recommendation, I could not recommend launch,” Kilminster, now 91, said in an interview this month.
That could have been the end of the discussion. But NASA officials — who had come up with the teacher-in-space program partly to offset criticism of their costly inability to launch as many shuttle flights as promised — were aghast. While stressing they wouldn’t go against the rocket maker’s recommendation, they made clear they wanted the liftoff to proceed.
“My God, Thiokol, when do you want me to launch, April?!” said Lawrence Mulloy, the NASA solid rocket booster project manager, according to congressional testimony.
The data, NASA officials told Morton Thiokol, was not conclusive. They pressured the company officials to further explain its reasoning. Company officials said they wanted to discuss the matter privately and muted the teleconference.
As Russell recalled it, the company faced great pressure, including the likelihood that NASA was about to solicit competition to build future rockets. “We as a company had a very, very strong desire to please our customer,” Russell said.
As Thiokol paused the teleconference, Kilminster said in the interview, he talked with another company official and became comfortable that liftoff would be safe at the predicted launch-time temperature. The call was resumed, with Mulloy continuing to push for permission to launch.
With urging from a more senior company official as well as space agency officials, Kilminster then reversed himself and supported launching. He said in the interview that while there was pressure from NASA, “I don’t want to say it was the insistence of the NASA people that made me do that.” He also thought that O-rings could perform at a lower temperature than the ambient rate predicted for the following morning.
Looking back, Russell said he wished he had spoken up so that NASA officials on the call would have realized there was strong internal dissent.
“Why didn’t I speak up?” Russell said in the interview. “There had to be on me an intimidation factor that once the decision was made that I would not dare to refute it. That’s my biggest regret. I wish so much that after we had gone back [on the teleconference], I wish I’d have said that there’s a dissenting view here so they would know we’re not unanimous.”
Brian Russell holds an example of an O-ring that was used in the construction of the Challenger.
Russell concluded that NASA had turned decision-making on its head. “I’m convinced what happened is that the burden of proof toward safety had been flipped, that we, in our recommendation, could not say, here’s the temperature when it would fail. We couldn’t prove it was going to fail,” Russell said.
Morton Thiokol’s representative at Cape Canaveral, Allan McDonald, could not believe what he was hearing. Like Boisjoly and Russell, he had deep concerns about the effect of the cold on the O-rings. So McDonald took a rare step: He refused to go along.
“I told Mulloy that I would not sign that recommendation,” which he considered “perverse,” McDonald wrote in his memoir, Truth, Lies and O-rings. If NASA wanted signed approval, it would have to come from a company official in Utah. The whole exercise, he wrote, was a “Cover Your Ass” effort by NASA.
McDonald made one more effort to cancel liftoff, telling NASA officials: “If anything happens to this launch, I wouldn’t want to be the person that has to stand in front of a Board of Inquiry to explain why we launched outside of the qualification of the solid rocket motor.”
Kilminster signed the document saying that Morton Thiokol supported a liftoff. It wound up being Russell’s task to send the fax that recommended the opposite of what he had wanted. NASA got what it wanted. The launch was a go.
After the meeting, Boisjoly wrote in his log that he and his team had done everything they could to stop a liftoff, writing, “I sincerely hope that launch does not result in a catastrophe.” Later that night, believing that “the chance of having a successful flight was as close to Zero that any calculations could produce,” he vented to his wife, Roberta, according to the account in his unpublished memoir. (Boisjoly, who died in 2012, gave the memoir to Professor Mark Maier, the founder of a leadership program at Chapman University, who provided a copy to the Post.)
“What’s wrong?” Roberta asked her husband.
Responded Boisjoly: “Oh nothing, the idiots have just made a decision to launch Challenger to its destruction and kill the astronauts.”
‘Go Christa!’
That same evening, McAuliffe talked on the phone with her close friend and fellow Concord teacher, Jo Ann Jordan, who was at Cape Canaveral to witness the launch and recalled the conversation in an interview.
“I’ll call you when I get back,” McAuliffe said, and then added with a laugh, “Oh, it sounds like I’m going to New Jersey!”
Early the following morning, McAuliffe put on her blue flight suit, took an elevator up the launchpad, past rows of icicles on the superstructure, and buckled into her seat in the Challenger. She was joined by six crewmates: Scobee; pilot Michael J. Smith; mission specialists Ronald E. McNair, Ellison S. Onizuka, and Judith Resnik; and payload specialist Gregory B. Jarvis.
The Challenger 7 flight crew: Ellison S. Onizuka; Mike Smith; Christa McAuliffe; Dick Scobee; Gregory Jarvis; Judith Resnik; and Ronald McNair in Netflix’s “Challenger: The Final Flight.”
McAuliffe had told a friend what it had been like waiting for liftoff before a flight was canceled: lying on her back, unable to read or watch anything, head in a helmet and her body “strapped down really tightly, with oxygen lines and wires coming out of your suit.” She had packed several mementos, including a T-shirt emblazoned with what became her motto: “I touch the future — I teach.”
Steven McAuliffe, Scott and daughter Caroline, 6, were escorted to a rooftop building to watch the liftoff. Christa’s parents, Ed and Grace Corrigan, arrived with Scott’s third-grade class and other friends to watch from a grandstand. Given my assignment to tell the family’s story, I was escorted to sit near the parents.
The day seemed postcard-perfect crystalline, at least in terms of unlimited visibility and no forecast of precipitation. But the predawn temperature was 22 degrees. As Grace Corrigan later wrote, it was “cold, cold, cold. … We could see icicles hanging from the shuttle. How could they lift off like this?”
Television footage of the icicles on launchpad 39B prompted Rocco Petrone, the president of Rockwell Space Transportation System, a division of the company that built the shuttle, to advise against the launch. As Petrone later testified, he feared the icicles could damage the shuttle, and he told NASA, “Rockwell cannot assure that it is safe to fly.” NASA decided that it had sufficiently dealt with the ice problem, and the warning was dismissed.
For two hours, the launch was delayed. Now it was 11:38 a.m. The temperature had climbed, but the ambient reading was still only 36 degrees, and it was colder at the right field joint of the rocket booster, because of high winds sending super-cold gases down the tank. At company headquarters, engineers were in disbelief that the launch was going ahead.
Indeed, the astronauts had figured such cold would cause a delay, even though they were not apprised of the danger from the O-rings. But NASA had made its decision. McAuliffe’s parents and friends and the students from Scott’s class gathered in front of a large homemade banner that said, “Go Christa!”
‘The vehicle has exploded’
“3, 2, 1!” the children shouted.
A voice from a loudspeaker exulted: “Liftoff! Liftoff of the 25th space shuttle mission, and it has cleared the tower!”
“Look at it, all the colors,” a child said.
Then: “Where is it?”
Seventy-three seconds into flight, massive white plumes billowed from the rockets, painting curlicue contrails. To the untrained naked eye, it was hard to discern whether this was anything other than a routine separation of the shuttle from its rockets.
“It’s beautiful,” said one of McAuliffe’s friends, not realizing.
Aboard Challenger, the last words were spoken by pilot Smith: “Uh-oh.”
Forty-three seconds passed as the confused crowd looked skyward. Finally, a voice came over the loudspeaker: “Flight controllers here are looking very carefully at the situation. Obviously a major malfunction.”
Almost another minute passed.
Mission control: “We have a report from the flight dynamics officer that the vehicle has exploded.”
I looked at Ed and Grace Corrigan, Scott’s classmates, McAuliffe’s friends.
“Contingency procedures are in effect,” said the monotone voice from the speakers.
Again, the loudspeaker voice: “We have a report relayed through the flight dynamics officer that the vehicle has exploded.”
“Oh my God,” said one of the chaperones for Scott’s classmates. “Everyone, get together.”
Jo Ann Jordan, the friend who had talked hours earlier with McAuliffe, exclaimed, “It didn’t explode, it didn’t explode.”
The Corrigans looked shell-shocked, squinting at the white streaks expanding across the sky, obscuring the craft that had carried their daughter. Finally, they inched down the steps of the grandstand, whisked away by a NASA official.
The space shuttle Challenger explodes shortly after lifting off from Kennedy Space Center, Fla., on Jan. 28, 1986.
Only later, it was determined the vehicle had not entirely exploded. At least some of the crew members were probably briefly alive, perhaps for as long as two minutes. Evidence later showed that Smith’s personal emergency air pack had been activated for him by another astronaut, and that Smith had turned a switch to regain power. But they were in an uncontrollable piece of the shuttle. Escape was impossible because NASA had decided there was no need to plan for such an emergency. The cabin slammed into the ocean. The remains of the bodies would be recovered from the bottom of the sea.
Reagan canceled his State of the Union speech. He instead delivered a brief address, paraphrasing a famous poem by American aviator John Magee called High Flight: “They slipped the surly bonds of Earth to touch the face of God.”
Reagan had no way of knowing it, but McAuliffe had slipped a full copy of the poem into her flight suit before boarding the Challenger.
Back at Morton Thiokol headquarters, Boisjoly and Russell watched the Challenger liftoff from the same conference room where they had opposed the launch only hours earlier. Retreating to Boisjoly’s office, the two embraced and cried. “We just knew inside of us it was us — that it was the booster, it was the joint, it was just what we talked about the night before, we both felt we were profoundly sorrowful,” Russell said in the interview.
‘She died because of NASA’
In those days before the internet and cellphones, and with network television stations broadcasting regular programing, the launch had been carried live by CNN and satellite feeds to classrooms, where millions of schoolchildren saw the events unfold. Within an hour, most Americans had heard the news and seen replays. I wrote an initial story for a rare extra edition, headlined “Globe reporter with family at scene,” accompanied by a massive picture of the explosion. The Post assembled a team of reporters to write a book, Challengers, which profiled the astronauts.The disasterbecame one of the biggest stories in years.
The disaster, after all, had led to the first in-flight deaths of American astronauts. (Three astronauts had died in a launchpad accident in 1967.) Tens of millions of viewers tuned in to watch the televised hearings of an investigative commission. Soon came confirmation of all that the Morton Thiokol engineers had warned about: the years of disregarded red flags that the O-rings were susceptible to the cold, as evidenced by the meeting before the launch at which company engineers were overruled by managers.
Ed Corrigan absorbed it all with growing anger. Like many members of the family, McAuliffe’s fatherhad initially declined to speak against NASA. But after he died in 1990, his widow, Grace, discovered a notebook in which he laid out his feelings. “NASA’s ineptitude,” Ed Corrigan titled one paper, in which he listed the names of those who had opposed the launch, Grace Corrigan later revealed in her memoir, A Journal for Christa.
“I have been angry since January 28, 1986, the day Christa was killed,” Ed Corrigan wrote. “My daughter Christa McAuliffe was not an astronaut — she did not die for NASA and the space program — she died because of NASA and its egos, marginal decision, ignorance and irresponsibility. NASA betrayed seven people who deserved to live.”
NASA officials said in congressional hearings that they made the decision based on information supplied to them at the time, including the faxed recommendation for launch from the Morton Thiokol official who had reversed himself.
While much became known in the weeks following the explosion, more information has emerged in the ensuing four decades. McDonald published his memoir in 2009 and died in 2021. Boisjoly, who often spokeabout his anger about his unheeded warnings and documented his actions in his unpublished memoir,which was cited in a2024book, Challenge, by Adam Higginbotham. Some of those involved in the launch decision gave interviews for a 2020 Netflix documentary, Challenger: The Final Flight. Among them was Mulloy, the project manager at Marshall Space Flight Center who pushed Morton Thiokol to reverse his recommendation.
“I feel I was to blame,” said Mulloy, who died at 86 years old in 2020. “But I felt no guilt.”
Kilminster, the Thiokol vice president who reversed himself to recommend a launch, spent the following 40 years seeing himself cast as a villain. He said in his interview with the Post that he is “haunted by the fact that I was involved in a solid rocket and motor launch decision resulting in the deaths of seven extremely capable, dedicated and admirable individuals.”
But Kilminster also said he has been wrongly singled out.Kilminster said that he had been unaware at the time that the shuttle’s tanks had been venting liquid oxygen longer than he considered usual, which he said meant super-cold oxygen flowed downward and caused the O-rings to be much colder than the ambient temperatures.
“The temperature on the O-rings was a lot colder than anyone wanted to admit,” Kilminster said. Had he known that temperature at the field joint was colder than he considered acceptable, he said there is “no question” he would have reversed himself again and opposed the launch.
A number of engineers who worked under Kilminster have said, however, that even the ambient temperature of 36 degrees at liftoff was more than cold enough to have followed their recommendation against a launch. While Russell said he did not doubt that it was much colder at the O-ring, “the ambient temperature was cold enough to make me concerned and wanting a delay.”
A presidential commission determined that cold temperatures caused the O-ring failure, as well as flawed decisions and internal conflicts leading up to the launch. It was not within the commission’s mandate to judge whether NASA was at fault for putting McAuliffe on the flight. However, Alton Keel, who was the executive director of the commission, said in an interview that the lesson was clear to him then and now.
“They let the PR get in the way of good judgment,” Keel said. “A tragic example of that was Christa McAuliffe. She should not have been put on that flight. I’m sorry. But those flights were experiments. There’s too much risk involved.”
The rocket booster was redesigned by Morton Thiokol and never again failed. But in 2003, the space shuttle Columbia broke up during its return to Earth because its wing had been hit by a loose piece of insulating foam. An investigation found that, as in the Challenger disaster, NASA mismanagement was partly to blame. The last shuttle flew in 2011.
Wayne Hale, a former NASA flight director who worked on many shuttle launches, said in an interview that the culture changed after Challenger in which “safety was much more important than schedule,” encouraging dissent with the establishment of an anonymous reporting system and other measures. Still, he warned that “no matter how well things are prepared, there’s still a huge element of risk involved.”
‘This is still difficult for me’
The disaster profoundly influenced my outlook as a journalist, a career that soon took me to Washington, where I have spent much of the past 40 years covering the White House and those who seek to occupy it. In the wake of the Challenger explosion, I vowed that I would remember how NASA officials assured the public about the shuttle’s safety, and I sought to probe beyond official statements. And I would apply what I called the O-ring lesson: Make every story as airtight as possible. The O-ring failure proved the aphorism that nothing is stronger than its weakest link.
Steven McAuliffe has sought to keep the focus on his wife’s work for education. A little more than five months after the explosion, he delivered a speech to the National Education Association, in which he urged members to remember her legacy by working “until we have a system that honors teachers and rewards teachers as they deserve.”
Forty years later, that mission is still a work in progress. New Hampshire today ranks 38th in starting teacher salaries, at an average of $42,588, according to the National Education Association.
In 1992, seven years after George H.W. Bush had announced Christa McAuliffe’s selection at the White House, Bush was president and nominated Steven McAuliffe to be a judge on the U.S. District Court in New Hampshire — a seat that McAuliffe still holds under part-time senior status. The pick transcended the fact that McAuliffe was an outspoken Democrat and Bush was a Republican seeking reelection.
Steven McAuliffe, who remarried and still lives inNew Hampshire’s capital city, spoke in September 2024 at the unveiling of a statue of Christa on the State House lawn. He focused on Christa’s support for teachers, which he has said is democracy’s lifeline and was “far more” important to her than spaceflight.
“This is still difficult for me,” McAuliffe, who did not respond to an interview request, told the crowd of schoolchildren, friends, and politicians. “Which I guess I’m kind of proud of.”
June Scobee Rodgers, the widow of the Challenger commander, said that soon after the disaster, she talked to the other family members about a way to ensure that the mission’s message is not forgotten.
“I know NASA will continue spaceflight — they have to,” she said. “But who will continue Christa’s lessons? I talked to the other families and I said, these lessons aren’t just a textbook, they are a real-world application of adventures in space.” That led her to spearhead the development of Challenger Center, which has 33 locations. Students who visit the centers take part in a simulated space mission that faces a crisis, either in a mock spacecraft or mission control, as a way to stimulate interest in math, science, and aerospace.
“I hope and pray to this day that’s what Christa would want,” Scobee Rodgers said.
Although Scobee Rodgers knew much about the disaster, she said it wasn’t until recent years that she fully realized how aggressively the rocket company’s engineers had tried to cancel the launch, understood how NASA was motivated by its drive for boosting its support, and saw enhanced video showing an early leak at the O-ring, among other factors.
“I finally understood,” she said.
Last week, Scobee Rodgers stood silently with a bouquet at Arlington National Cemetery, where she and other family members of fallen astronauts attended NASA’s “Day of Remembrance.”
For Russell, the Challenger mission has never really ended. Last year, he visited NASA centers across the country to deliver a presentation about the lessons that are as relevant as ever: Leaders need to listen to warnings from those who work directly on the spacecraft.
“The whole goal of it was to make the team better and learn from our experience,” he said. “I would tell them flat out: I really wish and hope with all my being that you will do better than we did.”
Amazon is slashing about 16,000 corporate jobs in the second round of mass layoffs for the ecommerce company in three months.
The tech giant has said it plans to use generative artificial intelligence to replace corporate workers. It has also been reducing a workforce that swelled during the pandemic.
Beth Galetti, a senior vice president at Amazon, said in a blog post Wednesday that the company has been “reducing layers, increasing ownership, and removing bureaucracy.”
The company did not say what business units would be impacted, or where the job cuts would occur.
The latest reductions follow a round of job cuts in October, when Amazon said it was laying off 14,000 workers. While some Amazon units completed those “organizational changes” in October, others did not finish until now, Galetti said.
She said U.S.-based staff would be given 90 days to look for a new role internally. Those who are unsuccessful or don’t want a new job will be offered severance pay, outplacement services and health insurance benefits, she said.
“While we’re making these changes, we’ll also continue hiring and investing in strategic areas and functions that are critical to our future,” Galetti said.
CEO Andy Jassy, who has aggressively cut costs since succeeding founder Jeff Bezos in 2021, said in June that he anticipated generative AI would reduce Amazon’s corporate workforce in the next few years.
The layoffs announced Wednesday are Amazon’s biggest since 2023, when the company cut 27,000 jobs.
Meanwhile, Amazon and other Big Tech and retail companies have cut thousands of jobs to bring spending back in line following the COVID-19 pandemic. Amazon’s workforce doubled as millions stayed home and boosted online spending.
The job cuts have not arrived with a company on shaky financial ground.
In its most recent quarter, Amazon’s profits jumped nearly 40% to about $21 billion and revenue soared to more than $180 billion.
Late last year after layoffs, Jassy said job cuts weren’t driven by company finances or AI.
“It’s culture,” he said in October. “And if you grow as fast as we did for several years, the size of businesses, the number of people, the number of locations, the types of businesses you’re in, you end up with a lot more people than what you had before, and you end up with a lot more layers.”
Hiring has stagnated in the U.S. and in December, the country added a meager 50,000 jobs, nearly unchanged from a downwardly revised figure of 56,000 in November.
Labor data points to a reluctance by businesses to add workers even as economic growth has picked up. Many companies hired aggressively after the pandemic and no longer need to fill more jobs. Others have held back due to widespread uncertainty caused by President Donald Trump’s shifting tariff policies, elevated inflation, and the spread of artificial intelligence, which could alter or even replace some jobs.
While economists have described the labor situation in the U.S as a “no hire-no fire” environment, some companies have said they are cutting back on jobs, even this week.
On Tuesday, UPS said it planned to cut up to 30,000 operational jobs through attrition and buyouts this year as the package delivery company reduces the number of shipments from what was its largest customer, Amazon.
That followed 34,000 job cuts in October at UPS and the closing of daily operations at 93 leased and owned buildings during the first nine months of last year.
Also on Tuesday, Pinterest said it plans to lay off under 15% of its workforce, as part of broader restructuring that arrives as the image-sharing platform pivots more of its money to artificial intelligence.
Shares of Amazon Inc., based in Seattle, rose slightly before the opening bell Wednesday.
Southwest Airlines passengers made their final boarding-time scrambles for seats on Monday as the carrier prepared to end the open-seating system that distinguished it from other airlines for more than a half‑century.
Starting Tuesday, customers on Southwest flights will have assigned seats and the option of paying more to get their preferred seat closer to the front of a plane or seats with extra legroom. The airline began selling tickets shaped by the new policy in July.
Here’s what travelers can expect as Southwest does away with another of its signature features and becomes more like other airlines:
Goodbye, A/B/C groups
Under the open-seat system, Southwest customers could check in starting exactly 24 hours before departure to secure places in boarding lines at departure gates.
Early check-ins were placed in the coveted “A” boarding group, essentially guaranteeing they would find an open window or aisle seat. Others landed in “B” or “C,” the likelihood of only middle seats being available rising the longer they waited to check in.
The Dallas-based airline’s unusual seating process began as a way to get passengers on planes quickly and thereby reduce the time that aircraft and crews spent on the ground not making money. It helped Southwest operate more efficiently and to squeeze a few more flights into the daily schedule; the system also was a key reason Southwest remained profitable every year until the coronavirus pandemic.
The open-seating arrangement became less democratic over time, however, as Southwest also had starting allowing passengers to pay extra for spots near the front of the line.
Hello, assigned seating
An eight‑group boarding structure is replacing the find-your-own-seat scrum. Instead of numbered metal columns at departure gates, passengers will file through two alternating lanes once it’s time for their group to board.
The airline said its gate areas will be converted in phases starting Monday night, a process that could take about two months to complete. Columns that remain standing past Tuesday will have their numbers removed or covered in the meantime.
Southwest is selling tickets at fares with different seating choices, including standard seats assigned at check‑in or paid preferred and extra‑legroom seats selected at booking. For certain flights, passengers also will have the option of paying for priority boarding beginning 24 hours before departure.
How it will work
Newly designed boarding passes will show seat assignments and boarding groups, according to Southwest. A reservation made for nine or fewer people, including families, will assign those passengers to the same boarding group.
Southwest says the boarding groups are based on seat location, fare class, loyalty tier status, and the airline’s credit card rewards benefits. Passengers who purchase seats with extra legroom will be placed in groups 1-2. Customers with premium fares and the airline’s “most loyal travelers” will also have access to preferential seats and earlier boarding, the carrier said, while those with basic fares will likely be placed in groups 6-8.
Other changes
With the switch to assigned seating also comes a revision of the airline’s policy for customers who need extra room. Under the new rule — also effective Tuesday — travelers who do not fit within a single seat’s armrests will be required to purchase an additional seat in advance.
That represents a change from the airline’s previous policy that allowed passengers the choice to purchase a fully refundable extra seat before arriving at the airport, or request a free one at the gate. Under the updated policy, refunds are still possible but no longer guaranteed and depend on seat availability and fare class.
In May 2025, Southwest also ended its decades‑old “bags fly free” policy, replacing it with baggage fees for most travelers.
The changes mark one of the biggest transformations in the airline’s history, as it alters its longstanding customer perks to bring it more in line with the practices of other larger U.S. carriers.
“We have tremendous opportunity to meet current and future customer needs, attract new customer segments we don’t compete for today, and return to the levels of profitability that both we and our shareholders expect,” Southwest CEO Robert Jordan said last year.
When the Texas-based airline first announced plans in 2024 to switch to assigned seating, it said studies on seating options showed that customer preferences had changed over the years, with the vast majority of travelers saying they now want to know where they are sitting before they get to the airport.
Jordan said at the time that open seating was the top reason surveyed travelers cited for choosing another airline over Southwest.
ChatGPT now says it can answer personal questions about your health using data from your fitness tracker and medical records. The new ChatGPT Health claims that it can help you “understand patterns over time — not just moments of illness — so you can feel more informed.”
Like many people who strap on an Apple Watch every day, I’ve long wondered what a decade of that data might reveal about me. So I joined a brief wait list and gave ChatGPT access to the 29 million steps and 6 million heartbeat measurements stored in my Apple Health app. Then I asked the bot to grade my cardiac health.
It gave me an F.
I freaked out and went for a run. Then I sent ChatGPT’s report to my actual doctor.
Am I an F? “No,” my doctor said. In fact, I’m at such low risk for a heart attack that my insurance probably wouldn’t even pay for an extra cardio fitness test to prove the artificial intelligence wrong.
I also showed the results to cardiologist Eric Topol of the Scripps Research Institute, an expert on both longevity and the potential of AI in medicine. “It’s baseless,” he said. “This is not ready for any medical advice.”
AI has huge potential to unlock medical insights and widen access to care. But when it comes to your fitness tracker and some health records, the new Dr. ChatGPT seems to be winging it. That fits a disturbing trend: AI companies launching products that are broken, fail to deliver, or are even dangerous. It should go without saying that people’s health actually matters. Any product — even one labeled “beta” — that claims to provide personal health insights shouldn’t be this clueless.
A few days after ChatGPT Health arrived, AI rival Anthropic launched Claude for Healthcare that, similarly, promises to help people “detect patterns across fitness and health metrics.” Anyone with a paid account can import Apple Health and Android Health Connect data into the chatbot. Claude graded my cardiac health a C, relying on some of the same analysis thatTopol found questionable.
OpenAI and Anthropic say their bots can’t replace doctors or provide diagnosis and include contextual disclaimers. Yet both products willingly provided detailed analysis of my cardiac health. (The Washington Post has a content partnership with OpenAI.)
The companies also say their health bots are in early testing phases, but didn’t specify how they planned to improve their ability to provide personal analysis of body data. Apple says it didn’t work directly with either AI company on these products.
The more I used ChatGPT Health, the worse things got.
How ChatGPT misread my charts
The whole premise of ChatGPT Health involves a leap of faith: handing over your most intimate health information to a data-gobbling AI company. People are right to be cautious about AI privacy.
OpenAI says its Health mode takes extra steps to protect your privacy: it won’t use your data to train its AI or mingle it with other chats, and it encrypts the data. Still, it’s essentially a pinkie promise: ChatGPT isn’t a healthcare provider, so it isn’t covered by the federal health privacy law known as HIPAA.
After I connected ChatGPT to Apple Health, I asked the bot to share what health recommendations it had for me, and to call out any red flags. It said I should talk with my doctor about a “notable increase” in my resting heart rate, but congratulated me on my sleep and activity levels.
Then I asked the bot to “give me simple scores for heart health and longevity.” That’s when it handed me an F.
I asked ChatGPT: “You really think my heart health and longevity deserve failing grades?”
It responded: “Short answer: no — I don’t think you’re a lost cause, and I’m sorry the raw letter grades felt harsh. They were a blunt, heuristic readout from device-only data.” It said it could give me a more useful score if I also connected the medical records stored by my doctor’s office.
So I did that, and asked it again to “give me a simple score (A-F) for my cardiovascular health over the last decade.” The grade ticked up to D.
Topol was appalled when I showed him the bot’s analysis.
Despite having access to my weight, blood pressure, and cholesterol, ChatGPT based much of its negative assessment on an Apple Watch measurement known as VO2 max, the maximum amount of oxygen your body can consume during exercise. Apple says it collects an “estimate” of VO2 max, but the real thing requires a treadmill and a mask. Apple says its cardio fitness measures have been validated, but independent researchers have found those estimates can run low — by an average of 13%.
ChatGPT’s evaluation also emphasized an Apple Watch metric called heart-rate variability, which Topol said has lots of fuzziness. “You sure don’t want to go with that as your main driver,” he said.
When I asked ChatGPT to chart my heart rate over the decade, I spotted another problem: There were big swings in my resting heart rate whenever I got a new Apple Watch, suggesting the devices may not have been tracking the same way. (Apple says it keeps making improvements to those measurements.) But once again, ChatGPT treated a fuzzy data point like a clearhealth signal.
Claude’s C grade for me was less panic-inducing, but it also wasn’t sufficiently critical about the VO2 max data (which it graded a D+). Anthropic says there’s no separate health-tuned version of Claude, and it can only provide general context for health data, not personalized clinical analysis.
My real doctor said to do a deep dive on my cardiac health, we should check back in on my lipids, so he ordered another blood test that included Lipoprotein (a), a risk factor for heart disease. Neither ChatGPT Health nor Claude brought up the idea of doing that test.
An erratic analysis
Both AI companies say their health products are not designed to provide clinical assessments. Rather, they’re to help you prepare for a visit to a doctor or get advice on how to approach your workout routine.
I didn’t ask their bots if I have heart disease. I asked them a pretty obvious question after uploading that much personal health data: How am I doing?
What’s more, if ChatGPT and Claude can’t accurately grade your heart health, then why didn’t the bots say, “Sorry, I can’t do that?”
The bots did declineto estimate at what age I might die.
There was another problem I discovered over time: When I tried asking the same heart longevity-grade question again, suddenly my score went up to a C. I asked again and again, watching the score swing between an F and a B.
Across conversations, ChatGPT kept forgetting important information about me, including my gender, age, and some recent vital signs. It had access to my recent blood tests, but sometimes didn’t use them in its analysis.
That kind of randomness is “totally unacceptable,” Topol said. “People that do this are going to get really spooked about their health. It could also go the other way and give people who are unhealthy a false sense that everything they’re doing is great.”
OpenAI says it couldn’t replicate the wild swings I saw. It says ChatGPT might weigh different connected data sources slightly differently from one conversation to the next as it interprets large health data sets. It also says it’s working to make responses more stable before ChatGPT Health becomes available beyond its wait list.
“Launching ChatGPT Health with wait-listed access allows us to learn and improve the experience before making it widely available,” OpenAI vice president Ashley Alexander said in a statement.
When I repeated the same query on Claude, my score varied between a C and B-. Anthropic said chatbots have inherent variation in outputs.
Should you trust a bot with your health?
I liked using ChatGPT Health to make plots of my Apple Watch data, and to ask more narrow questions such as how my activity level changed after I had kids.
OpenAI says more than 230 million users already ask ChatGPT health and wellness questions every week. For those people, a more private way to import information and have chats about their bodies is a welcome improvement.
But the question is: Should we be turning to this bot for those answers? OpenAI says it has worked with physicians to improve its health answers. When I’ve previously tested the quality of ChatGPT’s responses to real medical questions with a leading doctor, the results ranged from excellent to potentially dangerous. The problem is ChatGPT typically answers with such confidence it’s hard to tell the good results from the bad ones.
Chatbot companies might be overselling their ability to answer personalized health questions, but there’s little stopping them. Earlier this month, Food and Drug Administration Commissioner Marty Makary said the agency’s job is to “get out of the way as a regulator” to promote AI innovation. He drew a red line at AI making “medical or clinical claims” without FDA review, but both ChatGPT and Claude insist they’re just providing information.
Scientists have worked for years to analyze long-term body data to predict disease. (In 2020, I participated in one such study with the Oura Ring.) What makes this kind of AI work so difficult, Topol told me, is that you have to account for noise and weaknesses in the data and also link it up to people’s ultimate health outcomes. To do it right, you need a dedicated AI model that can connect all these layers of data.
OpenAI’s Alexander said ChatGPT Health was built with custom code that helps it organize and contextualize personal health data. But that’s not the same as being trained to extract accurate and useful personal analysis from the complex data stored in Apple Watches and medical charts.
Topol expected more. “You’d think they would come up with something much more sophisticated, aligned with practice of medicine and the knowledge base in medicine,” Topol said. “Not something like this. This is very disappointing.”
Geoff’s column hunts for how tech can make your life better — and advocates for you when tech lets you down.
Authoritarians try to rewrite history, fashioning a story that reflects well on them. That’s why the Trump regime ordered the removal of the President’s House exhibits that tell the story of the people George and Martha Washington enslaved. Donald Trump denounced any public interpretation of our history that “inappropriately disparages” the United States.
But it’s not the historians and community activists who insult the white founders. They did that themselves, fighting for their own freedom while enslaving, raping, and torturing others. Washington continually rotated the people he enslaved out of Philadelphia, so as to evade the city’s six-month limit on owning other people. He went so far as to try multiple times to kidnap and re-enslave Ona Judge after she liberated herself in 1796.
This is Black history, but it is also white history. It is American history. I myself am descended from Virginia enslavers. I know the knots my people tied themselves in, trying to soften and justify what they did. But there it is in my great-great-grandfather’s diary, after he describes the weather: “This day my overseer beats my negro Shadrick for sleeping in.” My ancestors and other enslavers committed a grave crime against humanity. Only by telling this truth and facing it can we hope to even begin to redress the consequences of their crimes.
Sarah Browning,Philadelphia
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As longtime educators (35 years) in Philadelphia, we are outraged and saddened that references to slavery at Independence National Historical Park have been removed. We cannot change history, but we can learn from it. Can we come together as people in Philadelphia to find a private location close to Independence Park to display these panels with the help of grants from foundations, such as the William Penn Foundation? Can we show visitors that we are proud citizens of a city that values brotherly and sisterly love? America was and is great. Let’s celebrate our Semiquincentennial while addressing the reality of our treatment of enslaved people and Native Americans.
Joseph T. and Barbara R. Devlin,Telford
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The Trump administration’s removal of educational slavery exhibits from the President’s House site at Independence National Historical Park was apparently done on the basis that they “inappropriately disparage Americans, past or living.” Generations of Americans have learned of our history through such exhibits at national parks all around the country. This move to censor our true history serves no “Americans, past or living.”
Mark Baum Baicker, Carversville
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After the National Park Service dismantled all of the displays memorializing the enslaved people at the President’s House, a call went out to Philly artists to contribute creative work to the now dismantled memorial.
As I headed out to the site with some artwork, I learned that federal officers had killed a protester in Minneapolis, Alex Pretti, an intensive care nurse.
Donald Trump, Stephen Miller, Kristi Noem, Marco Rubio, Russell Vought, et al. can’t find another country to invade that won’t bring down the condemnation of the international community. Instead, with the help of the U.S. Supreme Court, the GOP, and a handful of billionaires, they are waging war on the United States of America. We are on the receiving end of a deliberate form of cultural erasure, disappearing references about the brutality of slavery at the same time that the good people of this country are being abducted, beaten, incarcerated, and now, killed.
Cindy Maguire,Merion Station
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I am outraged that the National Park Service removed the exhibits documenting slavery at the President’s House. Erasing those parts of our history that make us uncomfortable does not make “America Great Again.” What can make America great is the acknowledgment of its failures (past and present) with a firm commitment to righting those wrongs and making life better for everyone who lives here, regardless of where they come from, what color they are, whether they are rich or poor, or whether they are citizens or not. We seem to be drifting further and further away from any semblance of what makes a country great, from being an example for others to emulate. I wonder how future exhibits of this period in our nation’s history will be depicted — or if they will also be erased.
Kathleen Coyne,Wallingford
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I am writing to urge that references to slavery not be removed from our national parks and historic sites. These places exist to tell the full American story, not a sanitized version of it.
Slavery is a painful and shameful part of our history, but it is also central to understanding who we are and how far we have come. Erasing or softening that history does not honor the past; it diminishes it. When visitors encounter honest accounts of slavery, they also encounter the reality of progress — the long struggle toward freedom, equality, and justice, and the fact that our nation ultimately rejected slavery as incompatible with its ideals.
National parks are uniquely positioned to educate. They should present history in context, with care and accuracy, showing both the wrongs that were committed and the moral courage it took to overcome them. Facing difficult truths helps us appreciate the progress that was made and reminds us why it mattered.
Preserving these references is not about assigning guilt to the present, but about understanding the past. An honest history strengthens our national character and ensures that the lessons of slavery — and the achievement of overcoming it — are not forgotten.
Martha Weinar, Cherry Hill
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President Donald Trump and his administration, including the National Park Service, are wrong and foolish to remove the true story of slavery from the President’s House at Independence National Historical Park.
The President’s House is historic because it shares with only the White House in Washington, D.C., the distinction of being the official residence of two or more presidents. The President’s House was also at the center of America’s original sin of slavery, as George Washington lived there with enslaved people, and John Adams, an abolitionist, lived there without captives.
Trump and his followers are wrong to try to whitewash our national history. We must acknowledge our past, warts and all, and resolve to do better. And Trump is foolish. His censorship only draws more attention to what he is trying to deny. Americans are smarter than he is.
As another president famously said, you cannot fool all of the people all of the time.
Joseph Hoeffel, current volunteer ranger, Independence National Historical Park
The writer is a former member of Congress.
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My grandmother, Margaret Washington, descendant of George Washington, and my grandfather, George Robins, descendant of Bishop William White, are probably rolling in their graves in the Christ Church graveyard over the removal of the signage at the President’s House nearby.
As a retired public schoolteacher and a Washington and White family descendant, I’m appalled at the removal of the exhibit signs about the people Washington enslaved. Included was one sign with images of the Rev. Absalom Jones and the Rev. Richard Allen.
Bishop White ordained Absalom Jones as our first African American Episcopal minister of St. Thomas Church.
I supported the Avenging the Ancestors Coalition’s work to bring the exhibits to the President’s House 20 years ago, and we need to continue to do so today.
Teaching the truth and supporting ongoing public education have been long-held values in our democracy as it progresses through time. We cannot erase historic harms. My grandchildren are the seventh generation of their family’s Philly ancestry, and we need to work now to stand up for the truth and our democracy for our unborn citizens in seven generations to come. We the People need to demand the return of the signs now and stand in truth together, protecting the birthplace of our democracy in our nation’s 250th anniversary year.
Peggy Hartzell,Glenmoore
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Regarding the removal of the slavery exhibits at the President’s House, could the displays be recreated by either the city of Philadelphia or even a private organization with a GoFundMe page? Surely somebody must have photographs of those panels that were taken down. Set them up on public, private, or city-owned property nearby so they can still be seen, and the information contained therein is not removed from the public domain.
Doug Smithman,Dresher
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DEAR ABBY: I am a longtime divorcee and a retiree with grown kids. What is troubling me is I’ve always had an issue with taking a shower and all the oil and dirt flowing down my body. I think it’s gross, so I usually wash my hair in the kitchen sink. I also don’t get in the shower to wash my body. I hate getting out of the shower and feeling cold, or trying to get dressed partially wet.
When I’ve been in relationships, I force myself to shower or wipe down with hospital-type wipes. (I still wash up this way, just not regularly, and I know it’s gross.) I dry shave my legs and underarms when needed, but this is really an issue for me. I brush my teeth twice a day. I use a light perfume and often get compliments, but I know from reading your advice that seniors lose their sense of smell and I could be ripe.
I don’t know how to overcome this, and, for obvious reasons, I don’t have a friend I can float this by. I’m healthy and, like everyone, struggle with depression, but I don’t feel it’s bad enough to seek professional help. I’m on a fixed income.
Just curious as to what your thoughts are on this. It’s been a good six weeks since I’ve had a proper shower, and I find no justification for it other than I don’t enjoy it.
— UNSHOWERED IN ILLINOIS
DEAR UNSHOWERED: If I thought your quirk could be solved as easily as buying a portable heater for your bathroom, I would suggest it. You state that you suffer from depression “like everyone else.” From the mail I receive, people do have problems interacting with interpersonal relationships, workplace issues, etc., but they do NOT “all” suffer from depression.
Although you live on a fixed income, you could benefit from discussing your issue with a licensed psychotherapist. Help is available on a sliding financial scale through your county’s department of mental health or your local university with a department of psychology. While medication might help you overcome your depression, getting to the root of your shower avoidance will likely happen once you start talking.
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DEAR ABBY: My question is about dating among older adults. I have been on a dating website for a while now. Most of the profiles are fake. I finally encountered a legitimate profile of a nice-looking man, and we are now talking. After one week, we are finally going to meet for dinner. I’m thrilled, but he stated that he has “baggage.” When I asked him what kind, he replied, “It’s physical.” What does that MEAN?
We have discussed being intimate and, at our age, we are no longer virgins. I intend to go on the date and be gracious and kind, but I am more than a little confused. What are your thoughts? I thought we clicked or I wouldn’t be going on a date with him. What did I miss?
— PERPLEXED IN FLORIDA
DEAR PERPLEXED: The nice-looking man who has made a date with you could have been alluding to any number of physical problems. He might be missing a limb or need assistance getting around, or he may be impotent. Because he didn’t give you the laundry list he included in his “baggage,” you are just going to have to find out for yourself and take this a step at a time.
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